Revival Within

So, I've been writing several blog posts over the last few weeks.  Some in my head, some I've actually typed out and keep pressing "save."  Either way, there's been a lot God has been bringing to the forefront...overwhelmingly so really.   Makes me excited what God is showing and revealing to me, but it's a lot.  And sometimes when I feel overwhelmed with things I tend to stop and distract myself with other things.  Hate that quality about myself, but it's true.  So, here's to one of a few blogs to come...

"Without wavering, let us hold tightly to the hope we say we have, for God can be trusted to keep his promise." Heb 10:23

I am eternally grateful for the work the Lord has done within me. For the path I’ve been on...for the lessons and blessings He has bestowed on my life. Even in the hard stuff I can be forever grateful for His refining.  Unfortunately, I have found myself in a bit of a spiritual funk lately. Prayer, being in the Word, journaling, the whole nine yards, have been a bit lacking to say the least. I’ve talked with a few friends, asked for prayer, continued to go to Him daily, but nothing. Aren’t these points in our walk frustrating? Drives me crazy...

I started journaling in college, and have found it to be a great blessing. It has become and invaluable tool, as it allows me to go back and revisit things He has taken me through. Well, this time I was surprised to find my light ignited with past emails.
I randomly went back to emails I had received and written a few years ago. As I read, I was overcome by the passion and drive I had for the Lord. I found myself longing to be there again. Of course, this didn’t happen instantaneously, but the clouds were and are beginning to lift. The Lord reminded me of His faithfulness. He reminded me of the importance of faith. And sometimes faith is remembering He’s here even if we don’t “feel” He is there. I get frustrated in the times I am not overwhelmed with Him...when I’m not growing in some way...when I’m not in the depths of despair or having a mountain top experience. I have the all-or-nothing approach to many things in life, and find I carry that over to Him sometimes. A piece of advice I gave someone in one email in particular really hit home...

“...remember He is there. Ask God to remind you of His goodness. Remember the times He has rescued you over and over again. The times He has held your hand, showed you the way, and loved you through the lowest points. He is that same God now that He was then.”


 Sometimes it seems God is silent, not saying a word, but it’s then that maybe He’s wanting you to “see” Him more than “hear” Him. So, what about you? Are you in a season of hearing? Or seeing? Or maybe both? Just don’t forget to take the time to BE with Him...whatever that looks like for you.  It's sometimes the hardest step, but just finding 5 or 10 minutes to give to Him can make all the difference in the world.  Lord, help me to be still and know YOU are God...