And my heart is most certainly found in the mountains of Colorado. There's just something so incredibly amazing about the endless trees, perfect white, and stillness of the mountains. My soul is at rest, my world is in perfect peace...I just freakin love it! (And I have to give the above pic credit to Mr. Mac. Thanks Mac!)
I had the great honor of being a leader on our high school ski trip. I had a fabulous room (handicap room forever!!), great ski buddies, and fun memories to keep forever. Here are some pics from the trip.
So, I did it. I ran 26.2 miles. I didn't exactly get the time I wanted, but considering the conditions I'm learning to be content with the results. I heard the White Rock Marathon had a reputation for brutally cold weather, but this year brought ridiculously warm weather and 30-40 mph winds. And let me tell you, after 15 miles of running, 30 mph might as well be 100 mph.
I am definitely an ipod runner, without question. Never did I ever go on a run without it. I know some of you expert runners out there get pretty bent out of shape over this topic, but I have never and will never claim to be mentally tough enough to run those kinds of distances without serious distractions. That just seems painful to me. My ipod is my best friend. BUT, I must admit, I think I only listened to it maybe an hour or so on the entire run. You're trying so hard to keep track of your mile pace, when you last took in calories, how you're doing hydration wise, and, honestly, simply trying to convince your body to keep going that I could hardly enjoy even one glorious note.
One song that I did listen to over and over was Robbie Seay's Song of Hope. Here's the chorus:
"I will sing a song of hope Sing along God of heaven come down Heaven come down Just to know that You are near is enough God of heaven come down, heaven come down"
You have no idea how much I was screaming out in my head, "Lord, that Heaven would come down right now!" By mile 20 my body was definitely screaming, "Why in the world aren't you stopping!!" I'm forever grateful for my two friends that came along side of me the last few 6 miles to finish. Adrianne, a good family friend, and one of my high school bible study girls, Kathryn, came in the last 6 miles or so to help get me to that finish line. I definitely recommend this to anyone about to run a marathon. It is such a HUGE blessing! Thanks girls!!!
And now for some more thank you's... Billy, how much I miss you!! You were the reason this whole thing started. You equipped me with everything I would need to accomplish the race. Thanks for the prayers, support, and encouragement...you're the best!! Thanks to Chris who gave me all my nutritional information. And for kicking my butt when I wasn't eating what I was suppose to. Thanks to Kim, Mike, and Alex for cheering me on. It was so nice having familiar faces along the way. And a great, big, giant thank you to my mom and Joe. Knowing I would be unable to walk after, they drove me there bright and early. They met me every 6 miles or so with goos and other much needed goodies. And most importantly, were waiting at the finish line screaming my name. And thanks to all of you who encouraged and prayed along the way. It was great having so much wonderful support!!
People kept telling me before the race marathons are addicting, but I'm pretty sure no addiction was started. BUT who knows...you might see me signing up for marathon #2 here pretty soon...
Here's a few of my favorite things this time of year. I must admit I've found it a bit hard getting into the "Christmas spirit" when we're still having 70 degree days, but I am in Texas, what else should I expect?
On to my favorites...First and foremost I want to make sure and state the amazing gift given to each of us that makes this time of year so incredibly personal and special: The birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. How incredibly undeserving and hard to comprehend the magnitude of this gift...
Now, the following are other things that make this time of year oh so special and fun!
1. The smell of Christmas trees 2. Listening to Christmas music...all the time 3. Stockings hanging from the mantle 4. Making Christmas cookies 5. Christmas movies, especially Burl Ives Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer!
My top favorite Christmas songs:
1. Kelly Clarkson- Oh Holy Night (my all time favorite! especially sung acappella) 2. Amy Grant- Breath of Heaven 3. Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You 4. Joy Williams- Here With Us 5. Andrea Bocelli&Celine Dion- The Prayer
New additions to this year's Christmas song list:
1. Harry Connick Jr- It's Beginning To Look a Lot Like Christmas 2. Lenka- All My Bells Are Ringing 3. Zach Gill- Silent Night 4. KT Tunstall- Sleigh Ride 5. Zee Avi- No Christmas For Me
I'll leave you with one of the best Christmas movie scenes ever...
Love the tradition of homerun derby in my family. Thanksgiving day we load up the bats, balls, and gloves and head out to the fields. This year we had 2 people join us that don't always participate. My mom and my brother's girlfriend, Kari. (Kari was kinda out their proving herself and passing a very big test to entering our family) The girls get to dominate the little league field (a 200 respectable feet) and the boys take on the "big boy" field (285 ft). We have a strict scoring system with just a few rules. You get 10 outs with your choice of pitches (meaning good pitches don't count against you). We decided to add a new category for the girls to our scoring this year. This year you got 6 points if you were able to hit it out of the field and into the adjacent field.
Now, we each have gained our own reputation in the game. My step dad, Joe, is the one who throws pitches to us and usually has a respectable showing in his at bat. Cam has really moved up in the last few years. It seems like only yesterday he was competing with me on the little league fields... Mom doesn't always participate, but she's usually always there for "support" and "encouragement." And don't let Mom fool you...she's got quite a swing! Matt kinda has a hard time...mainly because he's just too much of a golfer. He just can't break that golf swing! Kari was new to us this year. She has a long background in softball, so we were eager to see what she could do. She definitely proved herself a good leadoff hitter. She had a solid showing that was sure to give the guys a run for their money. We're glad you came Kari! Now, Caleb and I kinda have similar philosophies when it comes to this game...we swing for the fences...everytime. We don't mess around with the measly one and two pointers, we go straight for the five pointers. Caleb definitely has some power, and can knock them out. He was second to last, and up until then I had the prize for hit of the day...he came in and kinda took that away from me. He was a worthy opponent, and a great hit. BUT, I will say that I did get the 6 pointer and hit one into the adjacent field...we guesstimated it about 250 ft out. Very proud of that one!
I had an amazing time in the Great White North. My number of Canadian friends continues to grow and grow, so I figured I'd make my way up to visit. Honestly, I was really just getting tired of hearing them tell me how much better Canada is than the US. I will admit it is quite gorgeous up there. Now, I only saw the western coast, but it was amazing.
I have two good, good friends, Michael and Jacqueline, I met overseas in Prague that are from Vancouver Island. For the last two years they have been a great source of encouragement, support, and tons of fun and laughter. No matter distance or time, they have remained close and a great blessing. I am incredibly blessed to have them in my life, and was just waiting for the opportunity to go up and see where they are from and meet their friends and family.
It was fun-filled days of seeing the beautiful sites, playing endless games of dominoes, listening to tons of great music, and lots and lots of laughs and memories. Here are some pictures from the trip.
Michael and Jacqueline- THANK YOU so much for opening up your home (and stepping out on a limb) and introducing me to your families and friends. I had SOOOO much fun, and look forward to having y'all in the great(big) state of Texas!! Really, you both were more than generous! Love y'all tons!!
Here's a short excerpt from The Prodigal God. DEFINITELY recommend it. Tim Keller does a really great job of bringing you back to the simplicity of the Gospel. The parable known as the prodigal son is one most of us are familiar with, but in this last year God has been using it to challenge and open my eyes in such big ways. I never realized how much I missed from this one parable. There's just so much more to it than a story of one lost younger brother searching and squandering away all he owns.
I'll stop there. Again, definitely recommend The Prodigal God by Tim Keller. Good stuff.
"Once upon a time there was a gardener who grew an enormous carrot. So he took it to his king and said, "My Lord, this is the greatest carrot I've ever grown or ever will grow. Therefore I want to present it to you as a token of my love and respect for you." The king was touched and discerned the man's heart, so as he turned to go the king said, "Wait! You are clearly a good steward of the earth. I own a plot of land right next to yours. I want to give it to you freely as a gift so you can garden it all."...But there was a nobleman at the king's court who overheard all this. And he said, "My! If that is what you get for a carrot what if you gave the king something better?" So the next day the nobleman came before the king and he was leading a handsome black stallion. He bowed low and said, "My lord, I breed horses and this is the greatest horse I've ever bread or ever will. Therefore I want to present it to you as a token of my love and respect for you." But the king discerned his heart and said thank you, and took the horse and merely dismissed him. The nobleman was perplexed. So the king said, "Let me explain. The gardener was giving me the carrot, but you were giving yourself the horse."
So, I got this post idea from a friend's blog, who got it from Matt Chandler's blog. (Just wanted to make sure and give credit where credit is due.) This particular topic hit me pretty hard because I have been convicted like crazy for the amount of time I put towards meaningless things. I have been less than dazzled by things in life as of late, mainly because I'm not putting forth the energy to be apart of anything that SHOULD truly inspire.
So, I have decided to jump on the bandwagon and make two lists. One listing the top 5 things that rob me of my zest and joy in Christ, and the other listing those things that inspire and drive my affections for Him.
Robbers:
1. Too much time online; facebook, blogs, etc. 2. T.V. 3. My need for "downtime" (this is an easy one to hide behind) 4. Staying up late for no reason 5. Shopping
Inspirations:
1. Reading/Journaling 2. Growing deep in relationships 3. Music: Good, simple,(especially) acoustic sounds with meaningful words 4. Being outdoors 5. Traveling 6. Podcasts (especially Driscoll and Piper) (I know I said 5, but couldn't cut one out!)
Not sure what this does for you, but either way I hope you take a few minutes to think about what fills your life right now. Are they things that inspire and fill you with a joy for Him? Or do you find life lacking quite a bit at the moment, and wonder why life seems so black and white and without color?
Sorry guys! For those two or three that might actually still stop by, I have finally updated my blog! Getting the motivation to actually put anything up has been ridiculous. You know when it just seems like a "have to" instead of a "want to?" Well, either way, here's some posts that have been waiting to be finished for quite a while. Hope you're doing well!!
Below is a link to a super cool organization. It was started by young, fresh guys who love Jesus. I worked with one of the founders brothers in Colorado, and was able to hear and see a bit of what they do. There are many ways to partner with Krochet Kids. You can simply pray, share, donate financially, or even purchase one of their sweet hats. Here's a brief description of what they do...
"The program is focused on skills training for reliable income, empowering education, and personal care. Those chosen for the program are trained in the skill of crochet and then provided with materials to make quality crocheted products for a good salary.
The program is designed to provide a reliable salary and to empower the participants toward future independent entrepreneurship. In order to do this, there are financial education programs in place that teach skills in personal budgeting, financial saving, and small business management. Through this, each beneficiary will learn how to manage their income effectively both now and in the future. They will learn how they can invest to make a livelihood and provide for their families on their own." www.krochetkids.org
I know there are TONS of organizations out there to be apart of. You can get a bit overwhelmed, and forget to actually be apart. But please be apart of what God is doing all over the world. You will not regret doing it. You don't have to choose this particular organization, but please be apart of something, helping someone. I just wanted to share a way you can impact lives.
I have (mostly) stayed away from talking politics. I'm just not one who really gets caught up in political things that much. Now, I know some of you have strong opinions about our need to be incredibly active in government, and I respect that. On the other hand, I know there are some of you out there who are right with me, or even farther down the line in caring about politics. Whatever your stance, I thought I would share the following link to a blog from Piper on voting. Here's a little excerpt from the blog:
"Voting is like marrying and crying and laughing and buying. We should do it, but only as if we were not doing it. That’s because “the present form of this world is passing away” and, in God’s eyes, “the time has grown very short.” Here’s the way Paul puts it:
"The appointed time has grown very short. From now on, let those who have wives live as though they had none, and those who mourn as though they were not mourning, and those who rejoice as though they were not rejoicing, and those who buy as though they had no goods, and those who deal with the world as though they had no dealings with it. For the present form of this world is passing away. (1 Corinthians 7:29-31)
Let’s take these one at a time and compare them to voting..."
"So it is with voting. We deal with the system. We deal with the news. We deal with the candidates. We deal with the issues. But we deal with it all as if not dealing with it. It does not have our fullest attention. It is not the great thing in our lives. Christ is. And Christ will be ruling over his people with perfect supremacy no matter who is elected and no matter what government stands or falls. So we vote as though not voting." http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/TasteAndSee/ByDate/2008/3347/
I have a dear friend whose family is currently facing a hard, painful situation. I have had the honor of knowing her for the past few years. She has been nothing but an enormous blessing to not only me, but many around her. Since I've been back from Prague, she has been even more of an inspiration to me. The way her and her husband have been walking through this challenging time has been nothing short of amazing. They have clung to God tighter than I've ever witnessed, and have seen God move in ways that words could never do justice.
I was listening to the song "Still" months ago on one of my runs, and literally stopped and cried for my friend. They were the exact words I prayed for them then, and have continued to pray for them since. I see them constantly returning to His quietness and power. I see it in their faces, read in their emails, and hear it in their voices. Their souls truly do find rest in Christ alone.
God, thank you for providing people like Susan and Sila in my life. Lord, that they will continue to find rest in You alone. Remind them daily, hourly of your boundless love and care for them.
Still "Hide me now Under your wings Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with you above the storm Father you are king over the flood I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul In Christ alone Know his power In quietness and trust"
"One of the Pharisees asked him to eat with him, and he went into the Pharisee’s house and took his place at the table. And behold, a woman of the city, who was a sinner, when she learned that he was reclining at table in the Pharisee’s house, brought an alabaster flask of ointment, and standing behind him at his feet, weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears and wiped them with the hair of her head and kissed his feet and anointed them with the ointment. Now when the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would have known who and what sort of woman this is who is touching him, for she is a sinner." And Jesus answering said to him, "Simon, I have something to say to you." And he answered, "Say it, Teacher."
I was recently incredibly moved by this familiar passage out of Luke. The redemptive story of someone who was broken, condemned, battered down, criticized, and lonely. I admire her courage and ability to rise above those who judged and looked down upon her. She came to the end of herself, and found Jesus. She didn't care about the mountains of whispers, looks, and judgements that would await her when she walked through those doors. Her need for healing, love, and grace were so powerful, NOTHING could keep her away.
Outwardly it was easy to see this women needed Jesus. It was Simon and the Pharisees that found it impossible to realize the fact that they needed Jesus just as badly as this precious woman did. I pray I would realize more and more how desperate I need the same healing, love, and grace this prostitute did.
"Then turning toward the woman he said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave me no water for my feet, but she has wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You gave me no kiss, but from the time I came in she has not ceased to kiss my feet. You did not anoint my head with oil, but she has anointed my feet with ointment. Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven—for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little, loves little." And he said to her, 'Your sins are forgiven.'"
As of late, I've been reminded, in good and hard ways, that timing is, indeed, everything. I'm also reminded of the power of our words. Words can be like honey, soothing the hardest of days. They can also wound like the sharpest of knives. How easily we can forget...the power of words.
Throughout the last 20 something years in life, I've come to realize there really aren't coincidences. God in His oh so perfect way uses our day-to-day interactions and events to "gently" (or not so gently) prod us along the straight and narrow. It's up to me (and you) to allow these moments to sink in and refine. Will I let this hard, hurtful circumstance bring division and an air of self-righteousness? Or will I allow this to bring growth and humility, and choose to honor God? This is the choice we face day to day. I pray I will go with the ladder of the two, and be an agent of change and healing rather than a fragrance of self-righteousness and discord.
So, here it is. It's been awhile since I wrote what was going on in my world...I mean what is really going on. I'm not completely sure why I have been staying away from anything deep and personal, but have a few guesses. I just haven't felt like opening up and sharing the deep, dark with my computer screen. I have definitely hit a place of serious doubt and questioning. Either I've been seriously off, or perhaps the straight and narrow just gotten a bit more narrow in the last few months. I'm just tired of all the Christian cliches out there. Tired of passively knowing all the cute little Bible stories, and ready to really KNOW the God of the universe. And let me tell you, it's not the easiest thing in the world. Definitely humbling finding yourself asking/doubting the basics. Now, not hard in the sense that life sucks and there's no hope (although there are days life kinda sucks ;0) ). I think it's the fact I do have such hope that it's been so hard. See, I know there is only way to true change and redemption. I know there is only one person that is capable of providing the grace and love I so deeply need. And knowing there is only one is honestly a bit frustrating. Isn't there anyone or anything else that can come to my rescue? Anyone/thing that can make things better? Unfortunately not. I can try to find someone/something else, but it will just bring me back to the point I am today. BUT this is the thing...no matter how hard things are...no matter how deep the hurt and pain, I KNOW one day I will have true restoration. I know there will come a day when I will fully trust God, and I will be able to rest more and more in His endless love...BUT, today it's just not there. Today, I am just trying to make it each hour of each day...trying to believe and know I can trust Him. That's just being honest.
There are times it's hard to be wrestling with this stuff. Our "Christian" environments aren't always conducive to asking real, simple questions. People look at you with blank stares that can make you feel a bit ridiculous. But I am pretty ridiculous, so I'm good with that. You just get to the point where you have to let go, and admit you may have missed a thing or two (or three or four). Admit that I've been trying do to it in my own strength and knowledge. He's bringing me to the end of me and the beginning of Him...all Him. And it's been HARD. Totally turns everything upside down, and shakes everything up. All the "stuff" we learn and store in our head is great, but really is without value if we don't let it touch and saturate our hearts. I'm finally asking real questions. Simple, honest, basic questions.
As hard as things are right now, I wouldn't trade it for the world. You know why? Cause I am getting to know the Father in ways I have never known before...real ways. There are lots of tears, lots of hurts, and lots of pain, but I know it will all be worth it...that it is worth it.
I pray you have the courage and strength to ask the hard questions. To know there is nothing wrong with admitting you are a big, fat mess. To let go of the mountains of head knowledge, and let it make it's way to your heart. Because that's where you really begin to know Him.
As some of you know I am on my journey of completing my first marathon. This Saturday I competed in my first half-marathon. I was definitely a bit nervous only because I had been sick the 3 weeks prior to the race, and had only ran the 6 days leading up to race day. I will admit to you that I could hardly finish an hour run that week leading up the race, so I feel my concerns were legit. I pretty much assumed I was going to get dominated by the race. I talked to Billy (former boss, amazing runner, and pretty much my running coach) before the race, and expressed my concern. He assured me the 4 1/2 months of training had given me a great foundation to run the race regardless of the past few weeks. I wasn't as confident, but did it anyways. I basically wanted to make sure I wasn't setting myself up for failure and, more importantly, injury. So, I set a goal time, and went for it.
I'm incredibly happy (and a bit shocked) to report that I finished 10 minutes under my goal time! It was a great race! The weather was perfect, and running along White Rock Lake in Dallas was beautiful. Mile 7-9 were a bit brutal, but I survived. It really got me pumped for the full in November. Hopefully I can pick up my intensity a bit, and be well prepared come race day. Thanks Billy for all your help!!!
I am a child of God (John 1:12). I am born again(1Pt 1:23). I am a new creation in Christ(2Cor 5:17) I am united with God, and am one with Him in spirit(1Cor 6:17). I have been bought with a price(1Cor 6:20). I am being redeemed more and more everyday(Col 1:14). I have been justified(Rom5:1). I am safely and completely tucked away in the hands of God(John 6:39). I am a member of the Body of Christ(1Cor 12:27). I have been chosen(John 15:16). I am adopted as the King's daughter(Eph 1:5). I am sealed as His beloved(Rom 9:25). I am forgiven(Eph 1:7). I am complete(Col 2:10). I have direct access to the throne of the One and only true God(Eph 2:18). I am free from condemnation(Rom 8:1). I am fearfully and wonderfully made(Ps 139:14). I am confident He will finish the work He began within(Phil 1:6). I am secured for eternity(John 6:39). I am significant(1Pt 2:9). I am more than a conqueror(Rom 8:37) I have not been given the spirit of fear and timidity, but that of power, love, and discipline(2Tim 1:7). I am a joint heir with Christ(Rom 8:17). I am God's temple(1Cor 3:16). I am part of a chosen race, His royal priesthood, a holy nation(1Pt 2:9) I am wholly, completely, and eternally loved(Col 3:12, Rom 1:7, 1Thess 1:4,Eph 2:4). I am a follower of the One true God and His divine Word.
I wasn't going to acknowledge it, and I don't really want to talk about it...I'll just go ahead and say I think it might be a looooong season...just gotta endure and persevere... On a positive note, I am proud of the way they rallied there at the end. Hard to come back for 2 touchdowns in the 4th when you've been down pretty much the whole game...let's keep our fingers crossed for next week... Also, to my Clemson friends mourning as well, really sorry for your loss...
So, I was shopping at one of my favorite stores (Target) yesterday, and thought I was going crazy. I've been pretty sick the last couple days, which means I've been on some serious medication. I thought that may have been the culpret. I was in the sunglass section (since my previous oh-so-cute-$5 glasses broke the day before), trying on some new $5 glasses, when I could have sworn I heard a dog bark. What in the world? Am I having a flashback to being in Prague. The following is the conversation I had with myself:
"Wait, is that a dog I hear?" (Looking over my shoulder at a lady playing with watches) "Ooooooh, that's cute...a watch that makes sounds like a dog!" (Hearing the "bark" again.) "Man, that REALLY sounds like a real dog...the watch can't be THAT good...Can it?" (I take a look at the watch lady, then notice the watch lady staring at a suspicious lady in the aisle next to us. Guess it's not the watch lady...) "I think the barking is coming from the suspicious lady!"
Lo and behold, there was the dog. I was scrambling in my purse for my camera, but couldn't find it. By this time crowds are definitely gathering. I walk over to another section, and see 3 Target employees cowering, almost hiding from the dog lady. They were asking each other if it was ok to have dogs in the store. NO! I wanted to scream. Are you crazy? Are dogs ever allowed in stores? This is America! Maybe these people had just got back from living overseas as well...
Well, I left before I saw the resolution, but I did hear an announcement over an employees walkie talkie that the dog lady had to go because she was disturbing the costumers...thank you Lord for being in America.
"What if I tell them who they are? What if I take away any element of fear in condemnation, judgement, or rejection? What if I tell them I love them, will always love them? That I love them right now , no matter what they've done, as much as I love my only Son? That there's nothing they can do to make my love go away?
What if I tell them there are no lists? What if I tell them I don't keep a log of past offenses, of how little they pray, how often they've let me down, made promises that they don't keep? What if I tell them they are righteous, with my righteousness, right now? What if I tell them they can stop beating themselves up? That they can stop being so formal, stiff, and jumpy around me? What if I tell them I'm crazy about them? What if I tell them, even if they run to the ends of the earth and do the most horrible, unthinkable things, that when they come back, I'd receive them with tears and a party?
What if I tell them that if I am their Savior, they're going to heaven no matter what- it's a done deal? What if I tell them they have a new nature- saints, not saved sinners who should now 'buck-up and be better if they were any kind of Christians, after all he's done for you!' What if I tell them that I actually live in them now? That I've put my love, power, and nature inside of them, at thier disposal? What if I tell them that they don't have to put on a mask? That it is ok to be who they are at the this moment, with all their junk. That they don't need to pretend about how close we are, how much they pray or don't, how much Bible they read or don't. What if they knew they don't have to look over their shoulder for fear if things get too good, the other shoe's gonna drop?
What if they knew I will never, ever use the word punish in relation to them? What if they knew that when they mess up, I will never "get back at them?" What if they were convinced that bad circumstances aren't my way of evening the score for taking advantage of me? What if they knew the basis of our friendship isn't how little they sin, but how much they let me love them? What if I tell them they can hurt my heart, but that I never hurt theirs? What if I tell them I like Eric Clapton music too? What if I tell them I never really liked the Christmas handbell deal with the white gloves? What if I tell them they can open their eyes when they pray and still go to heaven? What if I tell them there is no secret agendas, no trapdoor? What if I tell them it isn't about their self-effort, but about allowing me to live my life through them?"
So the age ol tension for myself and most women, and I'll go ahead and throw in a few men, of being "content" in our singleness has orbited around my world heavily for a few years now. If we aren't dating enough, we have the loving help and "encouragement" of those near and dear to get out "there" (wherever "there" is) and date. On the other hand, if we are some of the few that are fortunate enough to have a somewhat healthy dating life we get the ol "You need to just take it easy and be content in your singleness." The minute I'm not dating or interested in someone, I'm being set up by someone else...the same someone else that just gave me the "chill out and be content" talk. It's kind of a lose/lose situation. A frustrating and somewhat obscure line...that patience, contentment, and being "out there."
SO, instead of dwelling on the frustrations of singleness, I thought I'd take a second and be grateful for singleness for the following reasons...
Flexibility. Spontaneity. Freedom. Good gracious, could I be any more free than what I am right now? No schedule but mine to check. I can pack up and take a roadtrip whenever I want. I can be available for others a heck of a lot easier. I don't have to wait to see what the other is doing for dinner. I can eat cereal every night if I wanted to!
Solitude. Down time. Time alone. I never realized how precious my alone time was until I really began committing my life to a more missional life. I realized as much as I love reaching out to others, I definitely need and love my alone time. Being single allows me to have that down time a ton easier than if I were married and had a family. I love quiet mornings, peaceful afternoons, and relaxing evenings.
Investing. Serving. Now, I know this one doesn't just pertain to those that are single. I know more married people than I can list that invest and serve in ways far greater than I am capable of even as a single. BUT, because I don't have a husband and/or children, that just gives me all the more energy and love to pour into others. Fellow singles, I believe this is where we have a tendency to falter. We can get very self centered and "me" focused if we're not careful. Find a homeless shelter, Bible study, help your church's nursery/kids program, do missions. Just get outside yourself...
Things I want to do now!
Grow like crazy! I want to be so incredibly available to God's stretching, transforming, and redeeming. Be proactive in my faith.
Serve. Invest. Serve. Invest. Enough said...
Take advantage of the blessing of freedom singleness provides.
Have married friends! I never ever want to be one of those that draw a line between me and the amazing married people there are.
Have fun!! Plan girl nights, and go on fun trips with the girls!
And finally...Ecclesiastes 3 says there are purposes for certain seasons of life. I want to be before God asking what unique things He wants me to do or learn in this single season.
The last 2 years, my old roommate and I coined a phrase: "Single's lookin really good right about now." And I have to agree. Ahhhh, the single life...
I just saw Mamma Mia, and I just had to put this up...Girls, break it down!
"You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen"
Most of you have probably heard the Josh Hamilton story. If not, take 5 minutes to hear it. Pretty awesome.
(It takes the first 30 seconds before it starts going)
Home Run Derby this year was insane! Practically cried when Hamilton didn't win it... I would post a clip, but can't really find a good one. Hope you got to see it!!
Yesterday in my quiet time I read a passage I've read a million times before, 1 Corinthians 13. The "love" passage can get a bit mundane for me, but I am grateful yesterday brought a renewed sense of introspection. The last couple years, God has really grown in me a greater understanding and more tangible knowing of what His love really is. Without going into the details of that, it's premise is that His love is endless, perfect, and real. All three descriptions may seem a bit obvious to most, but when He graces you the honor of really showing you what those things mean, it's pretty amazing.
As I was reading the chapter one part really stuck out to me:
"Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."
Powerful stuff using the words"never" and "always." But if we are to imitate Christ, and He is love, then this powerful statement should permeate our lives. Not saying that this easy. And when faced with hard, tough, real life issues it becomes even harder. Only by the Holy Spirit living in me, living in you, are we able to "never" and "always."
Love is the distinguishing quality of being a Christian. It is greater than all things, even faith and hope, and without it all other things are diminished. I pray that today God grows and surrounds you in His perfect love.
I've been reminded lately how fleeting things on earth can be. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. The things in our life are not promised to stay. Hurt is definitely real. Sorrows will come. And loss is possible with anything gained. The only things that rise above these truths is God's love and our salvation in Him.
For those in my life that are facing huge storms, and the flood waters are rising, may the Lord cover you under His powerful wings...Dear friends, you are loved and being lifted up with many prayers. May God's grace give you abundant strength to stand in Him each hour of each day. We love you...
Still Hide me now Under your wings Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar I will soar with you above the storm Father you are king over the flood I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul In Christ alone Know his power In quietness and trust
"To the right. To the right. To the right. To the right...To the left. To the left. To the left. To the left. Now kick. Now kick. Now kick. Now kick. Now walk it by yourself...walk it by yourself..."
I am blessed to have two dear friends, the Kashubas. Michael and Amanda have supported, encouraged, and prayed for me in sooooo many ways, through so many things. I am truly blessed to have them, and I'm eternally grateful God brought them into my life. Amanda is so much more than a friend. I know not everyone is as fortunate to have the kind of friendship Amanda and I have, and I make sure to thank God daily for her.
Just recently, Michael and Amanda have grown their family by two. They now have 2 amazing sons...Jesse who is 20 months, and Connor who is 2 1/2 months. The boys are the cutest things ever, and definitely light up a room!! This last Sunday there was a shower to celebrate the arrival of these two sweet kids. I couldn't help but sit and be in awe of the way God has moved and worked in their lives the last few years. That we were sitting there opening gifts for their two kids!!! God is soooooo amazing!!! It honestly brings tears to my eyes whenever I think about it.
Amanda and Michael....you both are amazing. God has grown, strengthened, and equipped you for such a time as this. Aunt Heather loves you both....and your two little boys!!!
This last week brought the final days of waiting...Katie's wedding was finally here!!!! Katie is a close, dear friend that I have known since 7th grade. It seems that our relationship has grown the strongest in college and after when there were hundreds of miles separating us. Isn't it weird how that happens? I would go visit her at Clemson and when she moved to Charleston, and she came to see me in Prague. Her friendship throughout the years has been a great blessing, and I'm honored to be apart of her and Jeremy's day.
The wedding took place at an amazing ranch outside Waco, Texas. Moon River Ranch was everything Texas...I loved it! Katie's 2 sisters and I were the only true Texans, so we had the honor of showing the other 5 bridesmaids our wonderful state. Thursday night we had the bachelorette night in downtown Ft Worth.
Friday we headed to Waco for the bridal luncheon, and from there headed to the ranch for some much needed pool time. That night was the "Nacho Average" rehearsal dinner. Nothing better than Mexican food and margaritas!!!! Mmmmm mmmm!
Saturday was the wedding, and everything went pretty smoothly. The wedding wasn't until 7:00 that night, so we all took advantage of a little more relaxin by the pool. The hair lady started at 1:30, and from there time flew by!!! We were all a bit scared about the wedding....only because it was outside in June in Texas!!! Blazin hot!!! BUT, thankfully it was overcast, so the sweat was kept to a minimum. A few highlights from the wedding: ginormous bumble bees attacking our heads, bugs landing on our heads and getting stuck on the hairspray that was melting in the heat, and the owners dog that attempted to run out in the middle of the ceremony. It was pretty difficult keeping a straight face most the time...OH, and one of the groomsmen definitely ripped one during the ceremony...his face after was hilarious! All the guys were laughing, and all the bridesmaids were wondering who did what.
Here are some pics from the week. The reception was beautiful, and we danced til the wee hours of the night...thanks Katie and Jeremy for letting me be apart of your honored day!!!
Alright, so I'm officially home...what a wonderful feeling!!! My time in Philly was really great. Met TONS of amazing people, and am excited to see what the Lord has in store. For those who may not know, let me give a brief recap on why I was there. I was in Philly going through something called A&O week (assessment and orientation). Basically, as the end of my time with Athletes in Action was nearing, I began seeking God on what He wanted me to do next. A few options were thrown out, but what I decided to do was look into staying in Prague but switching organizations. As you may recall, I was working for Athletes in Action in Prague, but now I'll be going back with World Harvest. I was fortunate enough to be apart of the beginnings of our great church in Prague, Faith Community. The World Harvest team in Prague became and are some of my closest friends, and it is exciting to now be able to "officially" work beside each of them.
For now I'm in Texas support raising, and enjoying the time with my family and friends. Of course, if you would like to hear more about this next part of the journey in my life please feel free to email me. I would LOVE to talk with you about how you can be apart of what God is doing in Prague!!! hnisaqt@hotmail.com
And on a smaller note, I just completed my first ever 80 minute run...without stopping!!! Or dying for that matter. Feels pretty good...well, my body doesn't feel to great right now, but you know what I mean...next up is my 90 minute!
One word can describe my flights back to the States...BRUTAL! The only redeeming qualities about my trip was getting to fly to London with my new friend Schanell, and the fact all my luggage made it safely. The 3 hour layover in London went by fairly quickly, but the 6 in Chicago...not so much. And I really don't love the Chicago airport. Let's just say I started traveling at 7:00am Prague time, and didn't lay my head down until 8:00am Prague time. The loooooongest traveling experience e-v-e-r. Next time I'm definitely paying the extra $200 for one connection with little to no layover. Oh, and did I mention that out of my 3 pieces of luggage, the lightest came in at 27 kilos? I really hated those things by the end of the trip...
Typically I find my way to Target on my first day back, but this time CVS had to do. Don't you just love that feeling of walking into an American store knowing you can get pretty much anything you want? I love it...unfortunately, we didn't have a lot of time, so I just had to pop in and get the essentials. It was sooooo hard not to throw a million things into my basket!!! And I forget how friendly everyone is...asking me how I was doing, if I needed anything else, and did all that with a smile!! Oh glorious day...One question that threw me off is when they asked if I had a card...."A card?" I thought to myself. What kind of card? The customer behind me kindly stepped in and said, "A CVS card." Ohhhhhh, yeah, I probably don't have that with me.
I'll update with more happenings. Oh yeah, and for those who don't know I'm in Philly right now. After a week here in Philly I'll be heading home to Dallas. Pray you are doing well!!
Just make it stop!! I feel as if the days are passing by at an unusually fast pace. Life is pretty insane in more ways than one right now. On top of the insanity, I'm not sleeping. No, not on purpose, I literally just can't sleep. I took drugs (Nyquil) a couple nights ago, but opted out lastnight, which was big fat mistake. It's like I have jetlag, but for no reason. I don't fall asleep til like 2:00 and sleep until like 10:00...stinks. Just can't turn the brain off...
Here's how I've been passing the time:
"I don't care what Jim says. That is not the real Ben Franklin. I am 99% sure."
Jim Halpert: [dressed as Dwight Schrute] Question: What kind of bear is best? Dwight Schrute: That's a ridiculous question. Jim Halpert: False. Black bear. Dwight Schrute: That's debatable. There are basically two schools of thought... Jim Halpert: Fact: Bears eat beets. Bears. Beets. Battlestar Galactica. Dwight Schrute: Bears do not...what is going on? What are you doing? Well, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, so I thank you. (Jim pulls a bobblehead on his desk) Dwight Schrute: Identity theft is not a joke, Jim! Thousands of families suffer every year! Jim Halpert: Michael! Dwight Schrute: Oh, that's funny. Michael!
This has taken waaaaaay too long, but wanted to send a special "Happy Mother's Day!!!" to an amazing mom...I'm sad I wasn't able to be with her on that special day to celebrate her, but she knows she is loved and cherished more than words can say! Thanks Mom for your support, encouragement, for drying my tears even millions of miles away, for the endless amount of prayers you've lifted up on my behalf, and most of all, for loving me with an unconditional, never ending love. You are BEAUTIFUL inside and out, and I am so very proud to call you Mom!!! LOVE YOU!!!
I received some sad news today...My most favorite teacher of all times, and the reason I became a teacher, passed away last Wednesday. Mrs. Farnsworth was an AMAZING woman to say the least. She impacted her community, friends, and every little wide-eyed 1st grader that walked through her doors in ways that are too numerous to list.
I can still remember the excitement I had walking in her class each morning. What made me feel even more special is that she let me come early so many mornings to help set up the classroom for the day...whether that meant putting up new decorations, setting up for theme days like dinosaur day or underwater day, or just reading a book, I LOVED being around her. She grew within me (and so many others) such a strong desire to learn, be challenged, and do all things with love and integrity. My senior year volleyball season they did video tributes to each of the seniors. All parents of seniors were asked to pick someone that impacted their daughter the most to say a few words on the video...my parents picked Mrs. Farnsworth.
The following link is an article written about her life. The thing is, even after you read through all the outreaches, woman of the year awards, teacher of the year awards, and endless number of community events she participated in, you still can't get the full scope of the impact this woman had on people...on individual men, woman, and thousands of boys and girls. She was a great woman...
Alright, so here's a few pics(I'll post more later) from Jacqueline and my trip to Budapest. I was delightfully surprised by how much I loved this city. Maybe my expectations were just really low, but I really did enjoy it, and would definitely suggest it to anyone who had the time. Jacqueline and I decided not to take advantage of public transportation, and instead took a wonderful stroll along the Danube each day. We seriously walked more in 3 days than I typically do in a week (which is saying a lot). I think we must have walked around 40 miles. BUT the scenery totally made it worth it.
Jacqueline, you are by far my favorite traveling buddy, and I look forward to our next adventure!!! (i.e. you coming to Tejas!!!)
I promise to have more details on the trip soon!!!
Ok, so there's some history with this little song...it started in college, and I would play it over and over and over! I loved it. Well, my good friend Robyn and I have little pet names for each other. Just hearing it (or reading it in an email) makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside...well, maybe not warm fuzzies, but definitely a big smile!!! I'm not going to share what those sweet little terms of endearment are, but I will say one is pretty close to one of the names in this song.
Well, when I googled the song to listen to it, and discovered it's origins go back to 1994. The crazy thing is that it's an actual little girl singing it! Love this...hope you enjoy!
Well, to say I've been doing a poor job of updating my blog would be a huge understatement! BUT, today is a day of sleeping in, staying in my pajamas til 3:00 in the afternoon, and catching up on life, blogs, and everything else I've been neglecting. Life is zooming by at rates I can hardly fathom, and I'm hoping to see signs of slowing. Don't you hate those time were you feel so completely overwhelmed in life? Where everything is being held by a string, and you're praying to God that string will withstand the pressure. This has been my life the last month or so. I feel I'm definitely at a marathonesque pace, and have been grateful it hasn't felt like a sprint. Slow and steady I can handle right now. Anything faster and I might have had a breakdown.
All that to say, I have allowed myself to use today to take it easy, enjoy some silence, journal about life, and reflect on the weeks gone by. I'm realizing more and more how much I enjoy my downtime, and how important it is to my overall well-being. I always thought of myself as more of an extreme extrovert, but have grown to recognize that might not be the case. Oh, how nice it is to stop every once in awhile...I pray you are doing well...that you will take the time to slow down and recharge. Till next time...
The last part of Heidi and Raven's trip was full of parties and fun. I had my good friend Jacqueline come in from Ostrava, said goodbye to 2 friends moving back to the other side of the world, and Dot had a birthday!!! Whew, so much going on!!! For Heidi and Raven's last night, we went to one of my favorite restaurants, Cowboys, enjoyed the amazing view for "dessert" at the UPrince, and loved every minute of it!! Such good times!
Dot and I hosted a going away party for Sara and Betsy. It was sad realizing they were leaving, but definitely a good time at the party. We'll miss you guys!!!!
And finally, it was sweet Dot's birthday. Some girls met up for a fabulous dinner and Ambiente, and there were definitely some sparks flying! You can check out my friend's Sunny's blog to see what I'm talkin about. Soooo blessed with some amazing friends here in Prague!!!
