Thursday, October 22, 2009

Honesty

Many of you know I’m, typically, one of the most open, real people you’ll meet.  I absolutely love honesty…just being up front and real with any and everything.  I think it’s essential in most all relationships.  I love the same quality in authors I read.  Donald Miller is one of those authors.  I know many of you have read Blue Like Jazz.  Some people love Miller, and some not so much. Either way, I find him incredibly real and raw in this book. He talks about things and admits things I think many of us are afraid to admit.  Vulnerability is such a button for emotions.  It can make you feel as free as a bird and as uncomfortable as sitting next to a live snake all at the same time.  I love it. 

In this book, Miller talks about vulnerability in a horizontal and vertical direction.  Vertical in the sense we are built to connect with people.  Not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually.  This requires we take down walls, and allow ourselves to be naked and bare to others.  This can be a really frightening thing, especially if we have experiences in our past that have ended with rejection and/or hurt. At the same time, we have an even deeper need to connect with the one true God of this world.  This is the horizontal aspect.  Here’s where authenticity is vital, and often times most difficult.  For those who have been around the church scene for any significant amount of time, you have probably been surrounded by many of these people, many “white-washed tombs.”  In fact, I could have been one of them at some point.  They look great on the outside, but dead and empty on the inside.  Too afraid to question or have doubts.  The thing is, God already knows we are having those doubts.  He’s just waiting for us to be real with Him, and lay it all out there.  He loves when we do this.  It’s as if He’s saying, “Finally, something I can work with. Finally what you’re really thinking.”  The most freeing times in my walk are the times I’m having an completely real and open talk with God.  Baring it all: anger, sadness, disappointment, the list goes on. So, I ask you and myself...how honest have you been with your Maker lately?  Trust that He is bigger then all our doubts, fears, anger, sadness, and any other emotion you can think of...

Thursday, October 15, 2009

U2

Simply amazing...

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

If You Stole My IPod...

You would hear...

"Shovel"  Katie Herzig 

"The Adventure"  Anglels & Airwaves

"Begin Again"  Colbie Cailat

"Save You"  Matthew Perryman Jones

"Please Don't Stop The Rain"  James Morrison 

"Chicken Fried"  Zac Brown Band 

"No You Girls"  Franz Ferdinand 

"New York to California"  Mat Kearny

"Answer"  Sarah McLachan

"Never Say Never" The Fray

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

God is...

God is real.  God is working.  God is alive and well. 

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I'm Feeling...

Sore from 2 long runs...

Annoyed that I broke my dinner plates while moving.

Excited I FINALLY got to take a shower.

Looking forward to it being Sunday tomorrow.

Loving my new bed...loving even more the fact I'm in it right now.

Super pumped I'll be in Prague in two months.

Blessed by God's provision.

Grateful for His Love.

Curious as to what the future holds...

A bit scared to see what happens with Michigan this year...so far so good!

Less and less shocked by the twist and turns of college football season...oh how I love college football!

An aching in my heart to spend some much needed quality time with my bff and those Kashuba kids!

Ready for volleyball season to be over.

Motivated...to do what? Not exactly sure yet.

Incredibly grateful for the silence.

Ready to take some steps forward.

And ready for bed! Goodnight everyone!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

VFND

That wonderful event we all look forward to, aka 10 year high school reunion, took place last weekend for me.  Are there even words to describe an event like that?  Really odd, awkward, but fun all at the same time. 

Back in Januaryish myself and 2 other Lamar graduates sat down to start planning what our 10 year reunion would look like.  After some brainstorming we settled on a venue, planned the weekends events, established a budget, and took off.  Let me just tell you, finding over 600 graduates 10 years later is not an easy task!


There were some ups and downs along the way, but all in all, I think it went really well.  Below are just a few pics from the night.  The first being Christine, Aimee, and I...the two I had the pleasure of working with.  Thanks to all who came! It was definitely each of you that made it a fun weekend!






Sunday, September 6, 2009

Good for my soul...

Music is such a staple to life for me.  LOVE it...Here's what I'm rockin lately.  Enjoy. Feedback more than welcome...Definitely check them out!

Mat Kearney:  City of Black and White -  The whole album is PHENOMENAL. Seriously.

Needtobreathe: "Let Us Love" and "Lay Em Down"

Future of Forestry:  "If You Find Her"

Taylor Swift:  "Breathe" with Colbie Caillat
                       "The Best Day"

Colbie Caillat:  Her new album is really quite good. My top 3 picks are "I Never Told You," "Fallin For You," and "You Got Me"

The Script:  They've been on my radar for awhile.  They have some good stuff.  The latest jam is "I'm Yours"

Michael Franti & Spearhead: Say Hey (I Love You) - VERY fun jam

Breathe

LOVE this...


Sunday, August 30, 2009

Some Likes and the "Not So Much" List

So, I was going through old papers, and found a bunch of my old vball stuff; workouts, inspirational articles, goals, etc. One of the things my coach in college had us do at the beginning of season was write down 100 things we liked and 100 things we didn't like. Everyone on the team would then get a copy of each persons' list, and we would, to some degree, get to know each teammate. Just a fun, random way to bring in freshmen more or less.

Anyways, I was reading over my list, and thought it very interesting and a bit humorous some of the things I wrote down. I found myself wondering where in the world I got some of that stuff. I decided to share a few with y'all...

Things I Liked:
1. raisins
2. flamingos (yeah, no clue on this one)
3. no lines at Wal-Mart (um, cause who doesn't love no lines at wal-mart?)
4. Mach 3 razors (they had significant impact in my world)
5. and apparently rap music (cause it made the list twice)
6. N*Sync
7. 90210

The Not So Much:
1. girls softball (more funny to me cause I'm surrounded by softball people now)
2. Vince Gill (hi-larious I actually put this)
3. sauerkraut (naaasty stuff)
4. tea (and now I love tea)
5. being "petted" (apparently this was an issue for me?)
6. stinky dead fish
7. leather seats

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Lost Sight

It's sad to me to think how much I've been focusing inward, and completely lost sight of anything around me. I feel as though I've gone from one extreme to the other this past year of life. It's strange to me how fast things change. Well, I guess this wasn't necessarily a "fast" change for me. (Unless you consider a year fast?) But no matter how much you know or feel yourself changing, I'm not sure you're really able to see the change until it's pretty far gone...or maybe I'm not being completely honest in that. I think I might have known the change was occuring, but just didn't do anything about it. Either way, my ability at self-awareness in no way helped deter or slow my progression to my current state.

I am such a different person than I was a year ago. Not that the goal is to stay the same, but the change I've seen is not the kinda change I want. I realize this post will probably come off completely ambiguous to all but those 2 or 3 people that actually have walked beside me this past year, so forgive me for that. I'm sure details will come out down the road. To be honest, I'm not sure I could really articulate what's been going on anyways.

The point of this random entry is for me to acknowledge there needs to be a shift within, and I think publicly admitting that sometimes helps in that process...accountability to some degree.

I pray for the strength and grace to go walk towards Him. Allowing Him to redeem, soften, and love me...all of me.

"Now seek the Lord your God with all your heart..." 1 Chron 22:19